so basically...

I'm really pleased with life right now.

Even though I've come to realize that I am a "Love Addict" which is a diagnosable personality issue. I read a book on it, and I have all of the symptoms except for childhood abandonment. Frankly, I had the picture perfect childhood, which should make me issue-less, but somehow I still managed to have some sort of problem.

The Love Addict is obsessive, intense, and far too attached. This is supposed to stem from childhood abandonment, but it probably just stems from some other past even that I haven't thought of yet. Apparently, the most tragic aspect of being a Love Addict is that they are instantly attracted to the Love Avoidant. The Love Avoidant is seductive and charming, but unable to provide the emotional support that the Love Addict needs. So basically, I'm fucked.

But, I don't mind being a Love Addict, and I think it's a crucial part of my personality. I wouldn't be Courtney if I didn't get an endorphin charge every time I saw my shimmering Love Avoidant. So, I'm going to continue to read this book in order to get an idea of what I should be looking for in future relationships.

At the moment, I am lacking in the Love Addiction department because there really isn't anyone that's making me swoon. So I don't think I have much to worry about.

Also, despite what this book says, I still like the idea of a dysfunctional relationship mending itself and blooming into a loving healthy one. It's romantic. I may just completely disregard this book altogether, because I'm sure I'll find myself analyzing everyone I like in order to discern if they're a Love Avoidant or not. That would be time consuming and dumb.

Also, who would want to give up jsoosch?