Castine the Dance Queen

is possibly the nicest person on the face of the earth.

just thought she deserved a shout-out, even if she doesn't read my blog.

come back, go home.

turn off the set

turn off the volume

stay where you are

come closer

come over

watch brilliance with me.

moist

New Mexico has dry crusty-nose weather, and although the smell of chilis is intoxicating, I'm glad to be home.

p.s. Hallelujah--Allison Crowe (it's been on repeat for the past 3 days)

i think that someday....

i'm going to make someone really happy.

i like understanding

why i am the way that i am.

I thank the cosmic universe for sending you in my direction...

even if my hip is sore.

so basically...

I'm really pleased with life right now.

Even though I've come to realize that I am a "Love Addict" which is a diagnosable personality issue. I read a book on it, and I have all of the symptoms except for childhood abandonment. Frankly, I had the picture perfect childhood, which should make me issue-less, but somehow I still managed to have some sort of problem.

The Love Addict is obsessive, intense, and far too attached. This is supposed to stem from childhood abandonment, but it probably just stems from some other past even that I haven't thought of yet. Apparently, the most tragic aspect of being a Love Addict is that they are instantly attracted to the Love Avoidant. The Love Avoidant is seductive and charming, but unable to provide the emotional support that the Love Addict needs. So basically, I'm fucked.

But, I don't mind being a Love Addict, and I think it's a crucial part of my personality. I wouldn't be Courtney if I didn't get an endorphin charge every time I saw my shimmering Love Avoidant. So, I'm going to continue to read this book in order to get an idea of what I should be looking for in future relationships.

At the moment, I am lacking in the Love Addiction department because there really isn't anyone that's making me swoon. So I don't think I have much to worry about.

Also, despite what this book says, I still like the idea of a dysfunctional relationship mending itself and blooming into a loving healthy one. It's romantic. I may just completely disregard this book altogether, because I'm sure I'll find myself analyzing everyone I like in order to discern if they're a Love Avoidant or not. That would be time consuming and dumb.

Also, who would want to give up jsoosch?

My Hands...

smell like San Francisco. 

Currently listening to: Joga by Bjork

Currently reading: A Clockwork Orange

Currently excited about: My computer's new nose job....or facejob. 

Currently crying about: massive amounts of homework

Currently getting annoyed with: the amount of times the word "currently" appears in this post. And Toby, the stray cat girl who whines outside your window.